It is so hard to believe

that this weekend Jesse will be a month old. We went to an appointment today, he was weighed and measured. He is now 9 lbs 7 ounces and 21 1/4 inches... so he has gained 1 lb 11 oz and 1/4 of an inch! He now holds on to fingers and gets a little tummy time and is fun to watch him lift his head. He has troubles with spitting up and so he has surprised me that he has gained more than a pound in the past two weeks.
After losing the water weight I have actually been gaining weight back. I do not understand this. I know that while nursing I need to eat more than I would if I wasn't nursing and wanted to lose weight. I would like to do more strenuous exercising but that isn't feasible, with our children that I cant just leave in the house to their own devices. I have started doing an exercising video, after Jesse falls asleep for the first time in the mid morning I spent as much time as I can between 20-40 minutes doing aerobic exercise, my muscles can really feel it. I don't normally sweat, but while doing this exercise I do. I hope this exercise and cutting out excessive sugars will help get me on track to losing weight again.
I can't wait to see Jesse grow and experience his milestones in the near future. They grow so fast, accomplish so many things when they are this little. I love how little he is now and each new age that he will grow in to, I don't want to miss a single moment of it.

Pictures

Isn't he such a cute little boy

Don't leak on me!

Kacen's plea to his mommy while she was helping him put on his shoes!

Im wanting

a root beer and some candy..

I haven't been OUT of the house for a week! Besides to the park and the neighbors.
Every time that I try it just doesn't seem to work out. I have planned to go to the store every day for the past few days and either the baby gets woken by wild children, they need baths or something comes up, ahh. Good thing that the things on my list (peanut butter, jelly, tortillas, miracle whip and other such) are not a staple food and dinner has been brought by all this week.

In a few hours

Jesse will be a week old.
He is a VERY good baby so far. He sleeps, wakes up to eat and goes right back to sleep. Sometimes I think he is too good of a baby, I wish that he would stay awake just a little more. Kacen never slept this much, Alona never ate this much and well Abbi ate a LOT with almost no break.

Today was our first peeing incident, I was changing him, putting the old diaper away and getting out the new one and it started going off, Abbi was sitting next to him and asks What is happening?! as she gets soaked, Jesse pees in his eye, on his head and all over the couch.
We ended up having baths unexpectedly. Jesse wakes up and screams like a little girl when you take off his diaper. He loves to be held and sleeps for a very long time when his Mommy is holding him. Paul is up with him a lot at night when he is not hungry, and then just brings him in to his sleeping Mommy when he is.
This week has mostly been a blur with feedings, sleeping and everything else. I have had breaks from the children, a lady took the kids three days this week for a few hours. Paul has taken over being Mom and dad, doing all the chores and going to work and dinner has been brought by every night. It has been so nice to not have to worry too much about cleaning or cooking meals. The difficult part is just keeping up with the kids especially with the weather that we have been having, not being able to send them out much in this rain.
I am doing well, I don't even notice waking up during the night to feed him. I seriously woke up last night with him laying on me and didn't remember him even getting there. I think it is mostly because I am coming down with a sinus cold, am always sleepy and have an awful headache. My feet have deflated, overnight last night I lost two pounds and the night before I lost 5 lbs. And my feet and ankles look so bony, I don't remember them being this skinny. That's what happens when you are swollen for weeks.

Here he is!

I started having contractions right after Paul left for work at about 3:00 p.m. and started timing them on a contraction timer web page. The contractions were 3-5 minutes a part and lasting about 90 seconds They weren't so painful that I knew, hey this was it or anything by those means. But after 5 hours of laboring around the house, wanting my children not to talk to me during my contractions and soaking in the tub and having them not go away I figured that it would be a good idea to go in to the hospital at least to get checked and see if they would keep me. I never really do know when it is time to go the hospital, even being my forth baby I was a little uncertain.

I was having contractions for 6 1/2 hours by the time that I got to the hospital. They got me all hooked up and checked me, I had gone from 3+ centimeters the day before to 5 centimeters when I arrived at the hospital. They still didn't know if they were going to keep me, they said they would wait an hour and a half and if I had progressed then they would keep me. I layed down and walked the halls for awhile they checked me after midnight and I was 6+ centimeters. They were keeping me. The nurse brought in an iv bag, I asked her, What are you doing with that? I don't want one of those! She took it away quickly!! But was very surprised, most women that come in to that hospital opt for the iv and epi.
The Doctor on call broke my water, the next part took the longest, getting to 8 centimeters. It took about three hours she said that I was an eight, I went and labored in the shower, which felt great. Paul was in there with me, reaching in through the curtain during contractions and streaming the water from the shower head on to the main points of pressure and pain. I must have been louder than I thought at this point.
Even the people in the room knew when I was having contractions.

A little while later I told the nurse that I was feeling pressure, I got on the bed and she checked me, still an 8 she said. I told her that the baby was right there. She didn't think that I was that close and told me to get on my hands and knees on the bed to labor, telling me that a new position would help and surely it did. I had only two contractions while in that position, telling her that I HAD to push the baby out NOW! She said that she would check me while I was on my hands and knees and that I didn't need to move. She checked me, I was at a ten and the baby was in fact all ready on its way out. I had to have help getting in to position and started pushing even before the doctor was in there. The nurse told me to go ahead. My husband later told me that the baby's head was all ready almost out by the time that he and the nurse held on to my legs to help me push. The doctor did not have time to prep the bed, to get out the lighting or to call my ob. Nurses came in and pulled down the lighting and got things ready while the dr. was i position ready to catch. I was yelling at the doctor to just take him out! Silly me, He tells me he is just there to catch, I have to do all the work and push the baby out. I knew this, I am thinking I am wanting the baby out without all the pain that comes at the end. I can dream that a baby can magically come out without effort :) I pushed twice and the head was all the way out, The doctor had to turn the baby's shoulders before I could push them out, one was facing the ceiling and one was facing the floor. He was all the way out in less than two minutes. What a relief that is to have the baby all the way out. Delivering the placenta doesn't feel like anything. I was still having more pain than I was used to after having just delivered. My husband and sister said that I soaked many bed liners with blood, the cramping was worse than the contractions that I had at home before coming in to have Jesse.
I lost a lot of blood, I didn't have an i.v. so they immediately gave me two different shots one to help my uterus contract and the other to stop the bleeding. I got to hold Jesse only for a second after my husband cut the cord and then they took him over to check him out. What a beautiful baby!
His heart was skipping a beat and he was having a hard time breathing, his blood sugar was real low and so was his oxygen. They took him immediately, I didn't get more time with him. They did an EKG, gave him oxygen and also an ounce of formula from a tube going in through his nose and down to his stomach. After six hours they brought him up to the room, the EKG showed that his heart was fine, the oxygen levels had evened out and after the formula his blood sugars were up and staying at a good level. They continued to periodically monitor him, and he kept doing great. We got home a few hours ago.
This is my second roughest recovery, I had pinched nerves in my legs, I am still extremely swollen, it hurts to walk due to having a baby and the cramping is painful. Jesse is doing well, staying up all night and sleeping lots during the day and eating like a champ now after being very sleepy the first day.

Today is Jesse's birthday

Jesse Franklin Bagley was born this morning at 3:47 a.m. weighing 7 lbs 12 oz and 21 inches long. He has a bit of black hair on his cute little head. I will update more when we are home..Baby and I are doing well. We are all a little sleep deprived and of course daddy is his normal self worrying about everything that comes along with having four kids and one being a new baby.

Owiee, Im being squeezed

Start Time End Time Duration Frequency 5:10:05 PM ---- 22:17 ---- 5:08:13 PM 5:09:56 PM 1:42 1 m, 15 s 5:06:58 PM 5:08:12 PM 1:13 2 m, 42 s 5:04:17 PM 5:05:59 PM 1:42 2 m, 15 s 5:02:02 PM 5:03:42 PM 1:39 1 m, 21 s 5:00:41 PM 5:01:56 PM 1:14 3 m, 49 s 4:56:52 PM 4:59:23 PM 2:30 2 m, 47 s 4:54:06 PM 4:55:53 PM 1:46 2 m, 25 s 4:51:41 PM 4:53:34 PM 1:53 2 m, 41 s 4:48:59 PM 4:51:32 PM 2:32 2 m, 51 s 4:46:09 PM 4:47:51 PM 1:41 2 m, 12 s 4:43:57 PM 4:45:14 PM 1:16 1 m, 40 s 4:42:17 PM 4:43:27 PM 1:9 2 m, 17 s 4:40:00 PM 4:41:28 PM 1:27 2 m, 11 s 4:37:50 PM 4:39:31 PM 1:40 3 m, 39 s 4:34:11 PM 4:36:19 PM 2:7 2 m, 53 s 4:31:18 PM 4:33:30 PM 2:11 1 m, 31 s 4:29:47 PM 4:30:56 PM 1:9 2 m, 3 s 4:27:44 PM 4:29:18 PM 1:34 1 m, 31 s 4:26:13 PM 4:27:32 PM 1:18 4 m, 17 s 4:21:56 PM 4:24:36 PM 2:40 3 m, 27 s 4:18:29 PM 4:20:26 PM 1:56 4 m, 45 s 4:13:44 PM 4:15:15 PM 1:29 2 m, 27 s 4:11:17 PM 4:13:18 PM 2:0 2 m, 3 s 4:09:14 PM 4:10:20 PM 1:5 2 m, 36 s 4:06:38 PM 4:08:14 PM 1:35 ----

This is just timing the past hour, I'm going to soak and see if they are still there. Yep still there

they grow so fast!

Abbi has started to write letters on her own and likes to spell the few words that she can with them. Working with her and having her learn a new letter each week has paid off. She loves to write the letter H and can write "Hi and Ho". Which I am sure will come in handy at Christmas time and while writing out the lyrics for the song to Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs. :)

Kacen has learned how to pedal his tricycle and also surprised me when I walked outside and saw him pedaling Abbi's bike with training wheels. He loves to sing songs, knows some of the articles of faith and is learning nursery rhymes. He also knows how to count real well for being two!

Alona is always learning and growing and has now started to learn and memorize scriptures. John 3:16 is her first scripture memorization!

ONLY 6 MORE

Centimeters to go that is!

37 weeks and 3 days today and I had my appointment I went from being a loose 1-2 last week to being 3+ centimeters dilated this week, and from being not effaced to 80-90 % effaced!!
Next appointment on Monday (which my doctor doesn't seem to think I will make it to)!
I am nauseous, irritable and very tired.

impending

I've been having contractions for four hours that I am aware of (before then I was asleep). I am getting irritable with the children. The contractions are not going away now when I sit down and they are even worse when I am standing. I am contemplating going in when Paul wakes up, only two more hours to wait for that.

The thought of having a baby soon almost doesn't scare me. The only part that crosses my mind, I still have three weeks! But besides that thought I am excited and anxious and my bags are almost ready. ((The children keep going in my room and eating all the snacks that are in the bag, so I need to quickly get some more))