28 February, 2009

A Wednesday night Dinner conversation

Abbi: Daddy, your going to be a Grandpa!
Paul:Oh Really, when?
Abbi: Next Tuesday
Paul: I see
Abbi: And mommy's going to be a Grandma, and I'm going to be a Mommy!

tiredness...

I don't know how many people have experienced the tiredness that I feel. It is not an, "oh is that all" symptom of pregnancy. Let me describe it to those who may not have felt it before, and for those of you who have I am so glad that we are on the same page and can relate!

I wake up around 7 am with my three lovely children feeling like I am awake for the day and my body couldn't possibly have let me sleep longer, but feeling tired enough all ready to have slept hours longer. Making it through the first few hours of the day isn't too difficult, this is when most of my energy is there and I use it...this past week for example, I did aerobics at 9 am for an hour three times this week, did playgroup, went to the library, volunteered at Alona's school, taught Abbi a few different lessons: Painted the letter F with finger paints, found things around the house that started with F, colored pictures of some of those things, talked about fish, make fish stick puppets and sang fishies in the deep blue sea, talked about the number four and the four major food groups, wrote them down drew pictures on a chart and made a mobile with one thing from each of those food groups. I use my energy wisely from the mornings, but I feel that even if I did not have this energy I would feel the same as I do now every day after lunch.

I feel like I can sleep for hours, I am not interactive, my brain does not function. I have no choice but to keep functioning. My children do not take naps, if I lie down and attempt to regenerate my children color on walls, make a mess of the Entire house, etc. I struggle to stay conscious and keep an eye on them even though there is no way that I can do things with them at this point. My patience is something that I also syruggle greatly with when I feel this tired. I am glad that it is getting warmer, I beg them to play outside while I watch from the window. I last until four o'clock with watching them and doing small things or letting them have a cartoon or two and then have to get up and moving. I go for walks or do something to keep going this is something that I can do that does not require me to be all there with them. There is no way that I can be excited about playing a game, drawing or being creative. Even reading is a challenge with how much my body says to Sleep! I go through the motions of getting dinner ready and on the table, for I know that I NEED to feed my children. It is there, it is on the table! And they don't eat it...so off we go to get pajamas on where Kacen fights every step of the way because he is almost as tired as his mommy is. Because while his mommy was pulling the wagon on the walk, he fell asleep for 15 minutes.
And then I let them rinse their own toothbrushes, here goes more energy that I don't have... are you ready for this while I was letting them wash their own toothbrushes out Kacen and Abbi decided that it would be a good idea to comb his hair with toilet water. Here goes another washing for him! Oh no, and they used my hair brush!

My house is a mess to say the least. My muscles and ability to be motivated and keep my mind awake enough for the task at hand is impossible. I am able to get the children in bed and leave the messy house for the morning.
I know that some symptoms of pregnancy can be much worse. But being tired while pregnant (and after the baby comes)takes on a whole new meaning especially when you have three children, none of which take naps or get along when you leave them to their own devices, are doing all household things by yourself and have no family around. Being tired is more than just tired, your body is creating a new life and your body is worn out half way through the day. It made me a little sad and defensive when I heard, "oh is that all".

23 February, 2009

4 years old!

She wanted pizza for her birthday and she got it! She went to Chuck E Cheese with Mom, Dad, grandma and her brother and sister. She picked out her own ice cream, sugar free cookie dough, mmm! They had a lot of fun with the rides
She was asked weeks in advance what she wanted for her birthday, "A Barbie and a scooter." She swore that the other present was a barbie. She opened the present and was quite surprised by the markers and paper that were in it. The other one was the scooter and she was thrilled! She has rode it many times. Grandma got her the movie, Wall-E, and outfit and a Dora wand for the bath tub. She loves dressing up and had me take her to the bathroom after opening it and got changed! She kept one hand on that skirt while running to different rides and games, trying to keep it from falling below her hips. She loves coming up to me, "Mom, I"m FOUR!!"
Sunday she came up to me, "Mom it's not my birthday, it's some one else's birthday." I thought that was cute, some one else got sung too in Primary and it clicked that her birthday was officially over. She got sung to her the week before, she was very shy and quiet when they sung to her, she sat in her seat instead of going to the front of the room.

22 February, 2009

23 weeks!!



My stretch marks from previous pregnancies are so visible.

19 February, 2009

too tired

Im too tired to write in a journal, my eyes are burning my head is pounding and I am sleep deprived right now by my own stupidity. I just wanted to write things down and still have the computer on.
-I went on a three mile walk today to the library and back. I used my new stroller, it works great!
I had cramping, pain in the right side of my abdomen during the last half mile. I am figuring that it is not good to walk more than two miles a day for the duration of the pregnancy. I don't think the cramps hurt the baby but the are painful for me and were intermittent throughout the day after the walk.
-I have helpful children. Alona agreed to cover up her brother and sister so that Mommy didn't have to bend over her belly to do so. I do believe that adding in the declaration that I would still be tucking in her in cause my arms would be reaching upwards and my belly would have no interaction put a smile on her face and she didn't seem to mind as much with covering her siblings.
-Alona would rather do her homework than play with her sister now. Now THIS is the child that loves to learn. Yes she does have to have some play time or her fits are out there and her alone time is something that has to be seen. But her capacity and willingness to learn is beyond me. I taught her to read, but there are some things that I did not teach her that is her OWN. I help in her class every Wednesday and the help that I give other children with their assignments is something that Alona learned awhile ago, how to sound words out, what sounds letters make and how to write them. Her ability to read and spell things out on her own is astounding. She spelled out the word t-r-e-a-t to her grand mother last Saturday. I know she is potential first grade age, but even so never being taught by anyone how to spell that word, it does not sound how it is spelled and she does it with ease. Imagination is a word that she can easily read along with may other words that are impeccable at her age.
-Abbi is an amazing little girl too. She knows her numbers that she is being taught. She is catching on to the letters and the sounds that we have went over in the past few weeks. She knows most of her colors and she is catching on to so much. She is starting to ride a two wheeled scooter. This is hard for me, possibly my last little girl, learning to ride her scooter. She is growing so fast. She shares, she has a great imagination, she is loving and forgiving. She really enjoys primary and she is so much like me! She is shy and turns red and quiet when people give her attention, she feels really hurt when things happen to her, she is a little blond haired, blue eyed cutie that Alona comments, "Mom, she looks just like you" when Alona looks at a family photo from when I was a child. She is full of laughter when things are going good and is incredibly silly. She had her birthday this week, I will post more on that later.
-Oh and Kacen felt the baby today! His face just lit up!
Now for the baby to just do that for Abbi! She has tried twice unsuccessfully.

16 February, 2009

Presidents

Honest Abe
Lincoln hats were a good thing to make on Presidents Day. Even easier to get them to understand that he was the 16th President of the United States being that today is February 16th. We talked about the Gettysburg address and civil rights.

We also went over George Washington, a farmer before he became President. General of the confederate army. First president of the United States, read the Declaration of Independence to his troops, July 9, 1776.

15 February, 2009

I have no excuse for this one


quoting my cute soon to be 4 year old, "Mom, why is your BUTT so big?"

13 February, 2009

I love you

Alona likes Valentines a LOT she loves letting people know that they are loved and cared about. All this week she has been at home making valentines. Making hearts, cutting out hearts... and the main thing that gets put on these hearts,
Dear ___,
I love You
Love Alona.
She keeps filling in these blanks with different boys names that she knows! I was awake when Paul was home last night. I brought this up to him, she is telling all these boys that she Loves them...is this something to be concerned about. I can just see myself when she is a teenager, Oh help me! She is a sweet girl!
Happy Valentines!

09 February, 2009

This is not just any house, this is a SPECIAL house

I heard from my sister on Saturday that my grandparents were moving out of their house. My Great Grandmother had been put in a nursing home and there was no point to paying everything still on two houses. So they moved in to where my Great Grandmother was living and will be selling their home. I had to go and see in case it was gutted and gone by the next time that I went down there. The front room is almost bare, the rest of the house was mostly in place but that won't be the case soon. I was happy to be able to see it one more time.
The girls were in the house with me. I told Alona, that there were a lot of memories in that house. We get there and she says, "Mom, I don't see any memories in here." I thought that was cute she also started talking about the house and said the title of the post along with other things. My Grandparents lived in that house since August of 1966(42 years and 5 months). There really are memories there in that house...
  • I lived there in the sixth grade
  • some of my last memories of living with my brothers are there.
  • My dad died when I lived there and I last saw him in that house.
  • I remember going over to my Grandmothers as a child for every holiday, going there after trick-or treating and ringing grandma's door bell too. Bringing our Easter baskets and Christmas presents and showing her what we got.
  • Many meals enjoyed in that kitchen.
  • Pictures and family get togethers, especially remember my uncle Kerry's homecoming from his mission.
  • My mother moved there when she was four, my uncle was six, their sister was two and their next brother was born there 4 months later followed by three other children.
    My aunts, uncles, mother and grandparent's memories have got to be endless.
I was really weird seeing my grandma in the house that her mother-in-law has been living in for a few years. She is quite positive in all of this and I give her credit for that. She is trying to make the house she is in now her home, which I am imagine is quite difficult. I wish I could be there to help more.

05 February, 2009

bringing him home in this

coming home outfit, its cute. Can't quite tell how cute, this is from my phone camera.

03 February, 2009

I won these






I bid on these on ebay and won them for a good price. They are 0-3 months, I am having a hard time finding actual newborn clothes. Who knows maybe I will have to go to an actual store for that. Before I bid on ebay I went to the D.I and to kid 2 kid and found nothing! There were plenty of little girl summer clothes but absolutely no boy clothes under nine months for a boy, those were frustrating trips! Glad I found something on ebay!